Hey guys
I don't know how to start this. I guess there is no right or wrong way
It's quite simple in fact: i feel alone. It's been almost 2months since i started recovery and before i was perfectly fine with loneliness. To be honest that's all i wanted. I didn't want to see anybody, i was hiding from everyone, including myself. But now i don't know. I pushed away all my friends so now i feel like i have nobody. I feel like no one could understand what i've been throught. Does anyone else ever felt the same? Does it get better? Things have been going well with recovery, it's very hard but i'm glad i chose recovery, i chose me over anorexia. But it's like nobody really understands how serious it is. People seems to think that everything will go away with some burgers and cakes. But it won't. It's deeper than that, it's about trust issues, low and or inexistant self-esteem. I'm afraid of meeting new people, of letting go, to step out of my comfort zone. I'm afraid of having fun, i'm afraid to discover the real me. I never allowed myself to do that.
I'm not sure where this is going tbh. I guess i just needed to talk and you are all i have right now.
I just want to say that it is okay to feel lonely sometimes, as long as you remember that it is just a feeling. Sadness, loneliness, despair, distress.. those feelings will go away if you allow yourself to live and to feel them.
I don't know how to start this. I guess there is no right or wrong way
It's quite simple in fact: i feel alone. It's been almost 2months since i started recovery and before i was perfectly fine with loneliness. To be honest that's all i wanted. I didn't want to see anybody, i was hiding from everyone, including myself. But now i don't know. I pushed away all my friends so now i feel like i have nobody. I feel like no one could understand what i've been throught. Does anyone else ever felt the same? Does it get better? Things have been going well with recovery, it's very hard but i'm glad i chose recovery, i chose me over anorexia. But it's like nobody really understands how serious it is. People seems to think that everything will go away with some burgers and cakes. But it won't. It's deeper than that, it's about trust issues, low and or inexistant self-esteem. I'm afraid of meeting new people, of letting go, to step out of my comfort zone. I'm afraid of having fun, i'm afraid to discover the real me. I never allowed myself to do that.
I'm not sure where this is going tbh. I guess i just needed to talk and you are all i have right now.
I just want to say that it is okay to feel lonely sometimes, as long as you remember that it is just a feeling. Sadness, loneliness, despair, distress.. those feelings will go away if you allow yourself to live and to feel them.