Hey everyone!
I developed an eating disorder in the age of 18.
While I was 12-14 I was 5kg underweight, so my doctors said I have to eat more. ( I did'nt eat breakfast or dinner, only lunch and many sweets ! But was mentaly healthy, only not the biggest eater )
I did it and ended up at a BMI of 21( in two years ) , didn't(!!) eat less and lost to a BMI of 18-19 over one year.
People said I look beautiful and so I thought I have to loose more, to look even more beautiful.
So I ate less and less and less, until I was near to dead.
I recovered in "quasi recovery" for a while, but started MM ( and still doing...) at a BMI of 15.
Now I hit the healthy weight and since this range, my body is going crazy!
I am 21 now.
I am sweating like crazy, but I feel normal, not hot or cold. I am wet like a fish! All day!
And suddently I am smelling bad, because of my sweat.
Before my ED, I was able to sweat and was healthy, but never smelled bad! And I was already an adult human!
Now, I can stink...
And two other things are creepy...when I was 13 my doctor said my wisdom tooth will come at the age of 15-16, but never did.
Two weeks ago I had bad pain in my mouth... => My wisdom tooth are coming...I am 21...I should be fully developed!
And the last thing:
During my recovery, i always thought about food....now about Sex! There isn't anything other in my brain anymore...it's embarrassing! I still haven't got my period back, but it seems that , since my healthy weight, my hormones are going crazy!
Can someone help me please?!?!
Sorry for language mistakes, but I am not a native speaker!
Thank you
I developed an eating disorder in the age of 18.
While I was 12-14 I was 5kg underweight, so my doctors said I have to eat more. ( I did'nt eat breakfast or dinner, only lunch and many sweets ! But was mentaly healthy, only not the biggest eater )
I did it and ended up at a BMI of 21( in two years ) , didn't(!!) eat less and lost to a BMI of 18-19 over one year.
People said I look beautiful and so I thought I have to loose more, to look even more beautiful.
So I ate less and less and less, until I was near to dead.
I recovered in "quasi recovery" for a while, but started MM ( and still doing...) at a BMI of 15.
Now I hit the healthy weight and since this range, my body is going crazy!
I am 21 now.
I am sweating like crazy, but I feel normal, not hot or cold. I am wet like a fish! All day!
And suddently I am smelling bad, because of my sweat.
Before my ED, I was able to sweat and was healthy, but never smelled bad! And I was already an adult human!
Now, I can stink...
And two other things are creepy...when I was 13 my doctor said my wisdom tooth will come at the age of 15-16, but never did.
Two weeks ago I had bad pain in my mouth... => My wisdom tooth are coming...I am 21...I should be fully developed!
And the last thing:
During my recovery, i always thought about food....now about Sex! There isn't anything other in my brain anymore...it's embarrassing! I still haven't got my period back, but it seems that , since my healthy weight, my hormones are going crazy!
Can someone help me please?!?!
Sorry for language mistakes, but I am not a native speaker!
Thank you