I'm 3 months in recovery and I am getting even more depressed by the day. I have really bad uneven weight distribution on my tummy, face and legs to the point where someone made a pregnancy comment. I don't go out in public anymore because I'm too embarrassed so I've lost contact with all my friends.
I have insomnia so bad which makes my eczema bad so I'm covered in horrible rashes and constantly itching. I haven't slept now in four days at all and have been sleeping only an hour or two a night for about two weeks.
My extreme hunger is unbearable, I eat do much that I'm sick and I also suffer with real bad acid reflux.
I just feel like I can't go on and I know even when my weight distributes which could take months and months, I'm not going go taper down and I'm the biggest I've ever been. All this is causing problems in my relationship too and I can feel my partner getting distant.
I'm struggling so much and I feel so repulsive.
I have insomnia so bad which makes my eczema bad so I'm covered in horrible rashes and constantly itching. I haven't slept now in four days at all and have been sleeping only an hour or two a night for about two weeks.
My extreme hunger is unbearable, I eat do much that I'm sick and I also suffer with real bad acid reflux.
I just feel like I can't go on and I know even when my weight distributes which could take months and months, I'm not going go taper down and I'm the biggest I've ever been. All this is causing problems in my relationship too and I can feel my partner getting distant.
I'm struggling so much and I feel so repulsive.